Back to the Oasis

As I'm sure is apparent by my all-but-dead blogsite, I have lately had a very bad case of writers block. Both in blog-writing and in songwriting. No great thoughts or ideas I have acquired have been deemed “blogworthy” and no material has been inspirational enough to write a song about. I have been in a long and weary drought with no way to express myself creatively. I do not feel comfortable blogging about my everyday life and how I spend my time on a daily basis. Colors and Cures is not meant for that. I feel that if I should share anything it should be my thoughts and prayers and frustrations that I feel about the journey and that I know I share with my fellow pilgrims. Information about my breakfast choices can by no means help anyone. In today’s world I find that people tend to feel a need to communicate exactly what they are doing right at that moment. To continuously update their lives. Online profiles such as Facebook and Twitter (I have both not to be hypocritical) only fuel the burning desire, not help quench it. I know this from personal experience. When I first signed up for Facebook, I felt this need to share what I was doing. When I posted a funny comment and no one else thought it was funny I was secretly hurt. I would see pictures of activities that my friends had done and I would be jealous that I wasn’t there, even though I knew I couldn’t be. It became a small obsession with me. The more I was online the more lonely I felt. When Facebook failed me I spent a small fortune buying songs on iTunes telling myself that I should enjoy great music and a lot of it. I spent many hours teaching myself web design and tried learning other hobbies. I spent many months looking for meaning in things that, for me, had no meaning. None of them necessarily bad and a lot of them good. Still, I wasted a lot of time looking for satisfaction. Then it occurred to me the complete artificiality of it all. I needed something real to quench my thirst. Something lasting. Facebook and Twitter will only be around so long before their gone. As will iTunes and web design and all my hobbies and everything else in the world. My soul cried even louder. I needed something real and touchable. Something lasting, strong and true. I needed Jesus. I turned to John 6 where Jesus states that he is the bread of life. He tells the people that he gives them the bread that lasts eternally. Jesus gives us the answer. He quenches our souls for free! He puts only one requirement on us…that we believe. It was then that I felt a calling. A calling back to the oasis of life. A calling back to a loving father after a long journey. A calling I find in trees and mountains and lakes and valleys . A calling I find in peoples laughs and in their cries. I felt as if God lifted me and pointed me in the right direction.

Since then I have written a song, my first and months, and I am here to share with you my unimportant thoughts about our journey.

God is good.